Shasha Blog

2011-05-06T15:55:00.000+08:00

2011-04-29T14:17:00.001+08:00

Its has been a long time i never update my blog.
Firstly life is sucks lately but at the same time there is also good times in it.
Everything happened for a reason and i keep telling myself to be strong no matter what,
I just wanna say im happy with what i have in life and im happy to have people that love me be by my side,
I tend to keep everything to myself and solve things by my own.
At times i feel like im alone and i will keep quiet...
All i wish is to have a simple life and be happy always like how i use to be.
I never knew it can be complicated.
I just wish i could be in fairytales but sad to say that this is reality.
I just wanna change to be a better person and be a simple girl.
I love my friends and family.
I just want everything to be like last time where i always cheer people up.
IM CRAZY but im HAPPY...:)
LOVE-
For me if you love me and i love u is enough,
I treasure all the good memories together.
If we are meant to be together,we will be.
If we are not meant to be,im happy to meet u and get to create memories with u.
Lastly you own my heart and i will always love u no matter what.
You teach me the meaning of true love and i learn alot.
Not only love but also about life.
I never regret meeting you in first place and i always miss you.
Ps-
You be the prince,i'll be the princess
This is Love story..Baby just say yes..
I LOVE FAIRYTALES.....<3<3

2011-02-25T11:18:00.000+08:00

Too many things happened Lately and there nothing i can do about it...
Im just to stress to think and i fcuking stress...
My FUTURE??
I have dissapointed my MUM...Gosh..(CRY)
Im so sorry mum i did this...you know that i love you so much no matter what...
Because of love i hurt myself...
God give me strength to overcome everything now....
I just wanna change and think positive in life....
I don't need your sympathy and i dun need you to judge me or my life...
Love sucks and Love is not everything..
When you go through it,you will know that its NOT ALWAYS ABOUT LOVE...

2011-02-20T16:01:00.000+08:00

I always remember this sentence..
"Whatever you do,Follow your heart"
He always tell me this and yes up till now i never listen to people advice..
Its my life and its me who go through every single thing in my life...
Whatever decision i made is because i want to not people who Ask me to do...
I choose to love him from the START so why must i STOP..
Why must i stop halfway of my journey when i should just go up till the finishing line...
Be its happy or sad ending,at least im brave enough to face it that this is REALITY....
I must learn to get hurt if i want to be in love right...
You can't stop your feelings if you like someone..Once you in my situation you will know..
I use to say why must that person like people who is attach or belong to someone else..
Now i know the answer..
You will never understand a person situation unless you experience it...
Once you love somebody than u will know how it feel..
And you know that love can change you...

Unfair

2011-02-19T09:49:00.000+08:00

How do i explain this feelings that i have right now,

Only god knows how i feel right now...

Im struggling myself in this reality world...

All these while i was in my own fantasy world as i seem not to care

about what gonna happened in the future...

I only pay attention to what is happening right now..

Right now im loving someone who already have his own ******..

i don't even know if its a right thing or wrong..

I just love him so much and i wish he could be mine..

Sometime i cry as what will happened to me if one day he leave me..

What if one day he is happy his own family..

Will he leave me just like that...

Everyday i miss him and i wish i could hug him everytime i see him..

Seeing him sleep on my lap makes me wanna cry...

Wish he could be mine forever and i wish that this will never end..

I know that all of this will be temporary...

God give me the strength when that day come..

When he will leave me...

I don't know what will happened to me and no words could describe how i feel....

I NEVER regret meeting him in the first place...

I love him for who he is and i know its my mistake for loving him..

But i could not stop myself from falling in love with him..

Because loving him was out of control and i will never stop loving him...

I will never hate him nor will i blame him for everything he done..

All i wish that he happy being with me all these while..

Seeing him smile makes me happy and even if im not part of his happiness..

I will always remember those memories with him such as places i went with him..

God knows how much i love you fir....

God knows how hurt i be when one day you have to leave me...

But i just want you to remember that i never stop loving you..

I never hate you for what you do neither do i blame you..

I just want to see you happy and always remember that life is to short to be sad..

Sometime when u feel sad,just look at the moon and stars...

There someone out there thinks about you always and want to see you smile at the end of the day....And that person is me..Loves,ashabella

2011-01-12T16:08:00.000+08:00

how do i explain this feelings..
I love him but i can't be with him...
God give me this test and i have to overcome it..
Never did i know i could go this far and my feelings for him will go this far...
Why life is being unfair to me...
For the sake of people happiness i have to suffer alone..
Some people say does not mean u love that person u have to be with that person...
What is the use of loving each other but not being with each other???
I keep everything to myself and hid myself..
I pretend to be happy but deep inside im hurt..

2010-10-29T14:01:00.000+08:00

Its hard to describe how i feel right now...
Sometime i wonder what is LIFE and what is LOVE...
You may hurt me..
You may upset me..
You may broke my HEART.....
But WILL you be able to fix it back?YES OR NO???
I don't know because right now its hard to describe how i feel right now...
I don't want any broken heart..
I just want a simple love story about me and you..
But is this the ENDING of our love story??
Only GOD knows how i feel right now...:'(

2010-10-27T14:18:00.000+08:00

Why must this happened..
Why must i be hurt because of LOVE...
It is so hard to love people without hurting them..
If you know u will hurt them,why in the first place you come to their world and talk about LOVE..
Why did u say those three words I LOVE YOU..
Why you make he/she fall in love with u with everything u did...
Why u make them feel happy when they with u..
Why must you be so heartless to come and then HURT them in the end...
DO u FUCKING UNDERSTAND WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY..!!
WHY MUST YOU DO THIS WHEN YOU KNOW THAT THIS IS GONNA HAPPENED!!

2010-10-27T13:53:00.000+08:00

I just wanna be alone...
I don't want to talk about it nor do i wanna share anything...
I just wanna remain silence...
Suffering in silence..
My heart pains and i don't wanna talk about LOVE anymore..
Im scared and i pretend that im fine..
Smiling infront of everyone when actually im hurt inside..
Never ask me about how i feel..
Im confused and heartbroken...
I just need some time alone to clear my mind...
I feel hurt with everything around me....:'(

Today is MONDAY..

2010-10-11T17:07:00.001+08:00

MOnday,MonDay,MONday,MonDAY...
I think today im gonna post aloooooooooooooot...!!!hehehehehe..
I just finish eating MACDONALD which i bought at malaysia,
The Mcspicy is different from singapore...
But it is SUPER dUper Yummy...!^_^
So later gonna have dinner with My parents and IDIOTIC brother...Gahaha*evil laugh*
I guess i wanna watch ghost movie while waiting for night...
Tomorrow im going to my sch to settle some STuff..
Ite Balestier Here i Come...weeeee!!!STUPID sch..-_________________-

Time Pass

2010-10-11T16:52:00.000+08:00

* BLUEKKKKKK*

Wow,
I never update for such a ~~LONG TIME...~~ *winkwink*
So my life is so the tiring for the last few weeks...
Im busy with my stuff and my weekends SUCKS..
Because im working and hell yeah!!no time for anyone on WEEKENDS..!!tsk tsk..
Next mth than i enrol and find a new job...
And LastLy i would like to dedicate this to this one person..
Its hard for us to be together..,
I never ask anything neither do i want anything..,
Because being with you is the happiest day of my Life...

Parts and Parcel of Life

2010-08-17T04:20:00.001+08:00

Everyone is talking about Love in their life..
Different people different story..
Basically i've been blogging alot of my love story here..
Some part shows that im happily in love and in the end im heartbroken..
Than i'll be fine after that..
It can be a poison and a medicine to me..
At times it is Killing Me...But at times it Cure me...
You can't choose which because you have to go through BOTH...
From what i know Love have broke my heart into pieces but at the same time it put them back together...
A simple crush turn to LOVE...
The day i knew you i have this small crush on you...
I treasure our friendship so much that i never have any closer friends other than u..
I used to have alot but i never ever like them just like the way i like u...
At times i do keep asking myself,why must i like u of all guys?
And i laugh..
Its my heart saying not me...
And even i don't have the answer but my heart knows what i feel...
Maybe the way you treat me and i feel so comfortable with u..
WHAT I HATE ABOUT MYSELF.....
Sometime i do get hurt with you..but i keep it to myself because i know we are just friends...
I have no rights in ur life...
I tend to remain silence..Even if i miss you badly..
I never tell you or show..
I keep trying to bear in mind that we are just friends...
Even if i get jealous with u..
I tend to do other things and try to think about other things...
Im not perfect person and im not a good lover..
Im sucks in relationship and im stupid in Love...
All im good is loving u in silence and making you laugh whenever you with me...

Lack of LOve

2010-08-14T21:03:00.001+08:00

ONCE UPON A TIME...

THE END.....

2010-04-16T12:16:00.000+08:00

DRUNK GIRL ARE BEST TO BE KISSED ON THE LIPS....!!! :D

2010-03-08T02:13:00.000+08:00

Imma princess and Imma geek..^_^
I just love the way i am...
Basically i am happy that i have someone to love me and be by my side always...
He love me just the way i am..
I don't need to wear short skirt or wear a make up nor a high heels....
Imma Nerd and thats me...I wear tshirt and jeans with a sneaker...
Im just a simple girl..
Take me somewhere where we can be alone..
You be the prince and i be the princess..
I love my Life..
I love my HIm...
I love my Family..
I love my Friends...
Love,no matter what happened i will never leave you unless you leave me luh...nyehehe...:)))

2010-02-22T20:18:00.001+08:00

I LOVE BEING PAMPERED!!

I LOVE BEING HUGGED!!I LOVE BEING KISSED!!
WITH THE GUY THAT I LOVE!!:))